I am experiencing something of a rock bottom. Well I would rather phrase that in a more positive way, but in addition to focusing on the positive changes that I plan to make, I need to realize the hole I have dug myself into and the steps that brought me there. Since my move my weight has creeped up and I have gained about 15lbs since the summer (and I have probably rounded that up to an even 20 with the holidays but I am not getting near a scale until I have done some work). I have a million excuses that I make to myself, it’s not that bad, I’m going through a breakup, I’ll start tomorrow, just one more time, I’m tired, It’s OK it’s the weekend, etc.
But now I am stuck here with a big belly, low energy and feeling pretty crappy about the whole thing. I am not going to wallow in things at this point, but I am going to take action and get myself back to where I want to be, to where I am really myself.
I started this morning by walking to work, it is a brisk 15-20 min walk and I will repeat it for the way home. I am also having a Vega smoothie with fruit for breakfast. I plan to drink a lot of water and tea today as well.
Well 2014 has been off to a busy start, but my health and fitness has not been at the top of my list. Just after writing my last post, I had a fall ice skating and then caught the flu while at the ER to have my head checked out. My whole family got really sick for a few weeks, even took a whole week off work, which I don’t think I have ever done in my life.
During that time, I decided it was time to move and find a better rental suite. I won’t list the numerous reasons that I hate my current place, but I am excited that we finally found some place new. Of course, me being me I am still nervous that we didn’t pick the right place, but I need to focus on the positive and know that it is a step up.
Getting ready to move has involved a lot of de-cluttering and tidying and now that we are moving for sure, of course there has been packing. I have let this be my main focus, rather than exercise and sadly my eating habits have been fairly poor, although I am drinking vega shakes a few times a week and having my herbal teas and things like that. My weight has stayed fairly stable, although I feel less fit so my fat % likely has gone up a bit.
Today is the day though that I go back to the gym. I will always stay on top of my goals, even if I stumble or have to change what those goals are. Feeling great about the future, life is good!
I have been MIA for several months because things went crazy but mostly in a positive way, never fear. This summer saw me doing a ton of hiking, and even a couple of backpacking trips. I recommitted to my health and wellness goals and have been back logging on MFP and hitting the gym on top of my outdoor workouts. I purchased a new fitbit which is keeping me very motivated as well. I am always open to more friends on either of those sites so feel free to add me if you like.
Also this summer I helped organize and promote Veg Fest Vancouver which is an annual Vegan street festival. I had a great time doing that and it was great to get to know more of the local vegan community.
This fall has already been amazing. John took me on an incredible trip to Jamaica and planning for it was very exciting and also motivating since I knew there would be bikiini pics (overall I am happy with the way I looked in the photos which is not how I normally feel but I am working towards more positivity and acceptance, I have a bit of work to do but I am happy with where I am today as well.)
Things are really looking up it seems. I am 13 days into clean eating and with only minor cheats I have stuck to my goals. Sunday we did a beach day and I was feeling that I had too many “can’ts” in my life so I decided to have a bit of a treat and I had caramel vodka in the fridge which my man helpfully suggested would go really well with Zevia rootbeer (sweetened with stevia) and he was SOOOO right 😉 I only had two drinks and didn’t let that derail my eating the rest of the day. The beach was fun, a bit chilly here still though, but I did bust out the bikini for a bit because I am trying to be more comfortable with my body no matter what my size may be.
So again I have lapsed in my blogging but these things do happen. I would really like to write more as it really does motivate me and keep me accountable. I also have a few book reviews to write for my CBR community but those will have to wait a bit longer as my work situation is still very stressful. I am trying to read more books as well as I really do enjoy reading, but I find myself mentally drained a lot of the time. But I think work is not totally responsible for that, and that brings me to the main reason for today’s post.
Without getting into too much detail, the past month has been extra stressful at work so although I was doing well with my health and wellness, I did fall back down the rabbit hole and ate very poorly and did not exercise much at all. The result of that was a depression that I am pleased to say I have nipped in the bud by recognizing it early and taking steps that I knew would correct it.
What my partner and I decided to do was to have June be a reboot, an opportunity to refocus on our goals and get back to where we both want to be. He has his own goals which are similar to mine but it is great that we can both be doing this together to support each other.