I am experiencing something of a rock bottom. Well I would rather phrase that in a more positive way, but in addition to focusing on the positive changes that I plan to make, I need to realize the hole I have dug myself into and the steps that brought me there. Since my move my weight has creeped up and I have gained about 15lbs since the summer (and I have probably rounded that up to an even 20 with the holidays but I am not getting near a scale until I have done some work). I have a million excuses that I make to myself, it’s not that bad, I’m going through a breakup, I’ll start tomorrow, just one more time, I’m tired, It’s OK it’s the weekend, etc.
But now I am stuck here with a big belly, low energy and feeling pretty crappy about the whole thing. I am not going to wallow in things at this point, but I am going to take action and get myself back to where I want to be, to where I am really myself.
I started this morning by walking to work, it is a brisk 15-20 min walk and I will repeat it for the way home. I am also having a Vega smoothie with fruit for breakfast. I plan to drink a lot of water and tea today as well.
2014 so far has been a busy time but full of steps in the right direction as well. As much as I tend to be hard on myself I have accomplished a lot so far this year. As I mentioned before, I have been getting ready to move and tomorrow is the big day. I get the keys to my new place at 8am and I really can’t wait. As much as I tried to make the experience as stress free as possible I didn’t fully succeed. I have come to the conclusion that the stress is inevitable. But looking on the bright side, I am organized, I have a plan and I took tomorrow and Monday off work so that I can take my time setting things up at my new place. My biggest excitement lies in the fact that I will now have a bath tub!! I haven’t had my own tub in over 5 years. I am gonna aromatherapy and candle up the place!!
Well 2014 has been off to a busy start, but my health and fitness has not been at the top of my list. Just after writing my last post, I had a fall ice skating and then caught the flu while at the ER to have my head checked out. My whole family got really sick for a few weeks, even took a whole week off work, which I don’t think I have ever done in my life.
During that time, I decided it was time to move and find a better rental suite. I won’t list the numerous reasons that I hate my current place, but I am excited that we finally found some place new. Of course, me being me I am still nervous that we didn’t pick the right place, but I need to focus on the positive and know that it is a step up.
Getting ready to move has involved a lot of de-cluttering and tidying and now that we are moving for sure, of course there has been packing. I have let this be my main focus, rather than exercise and sadly my eating habits have been fairly poor, although I am drinking vega shakes a few times a week and having my herbal teas and things like that. My weight has stayed fairly stable, although I feel less fit so my fat % likely has gone up a bit.
Today is the day though that I go back to the gym. I will always stay on top of my goals, even if I stumble or have to change what those goals are. Feeling great about the future, life is good!
I have not written a gratitude post in a long time, well that is because I haven’t written anything in a long time. However, I haven’t forgotten to be grateful for the many things that I have. I came back on here to complete another book review but felt that I needed to write this first. Today on Facebook I saw a post reading “Happiness will never come to those who don’t appreciate what they already have.” I could not put it better myself.
So at this point in time I have so many things to be grateful for and that is my #1 thing that I will be grateful for today. Some days you get boggled down in the muck and you have to think hard for something to be thankful for but today my cup runneth over.